From: Angela Cook <xubrnt@me.com>

Date: September 26, 2015 10:20:01 PM EDT

To: "xubrnt@mac.com" <xubrnt@mac.com>

i went to wholefoods today, i bought groceries based on a recipe because i felt i was getting thin of spirit, so i made a walnut pesto and white and green linguini, freshly grated parmesan, a little piece of rustic bread with real butter, and it was really good, with a fruit forward and vibrant cabernet, and then belgium chocolate gelato. very satisfied.

upon entering the store to do some shopping, a man in the foyer handed me a pink slip, and asked me if i would like to buy items for the food bank. i told him curtly that i just got off food stamps. he said i look really really familiar, i said i have a cute dog, and he is like 'no' he says he knows me from some where, and i say (although i look nothing like i did then) from trader joes, and he exclaims 'yes'

here is the fucking t-hing-e- seen in my re past a/ke in g~0ing f0reward e at e

when i was shopping IN wholefoods i saw pink notice hung in fact by the pasta bought, and i saw them around the store, and i am like "fuck-you" for asking any 0ne to b-u-y int0 this-hi-t- 2 by-e-t0-0-

when i worked at trader joes, that afforded me food stamps, -and- i watched them throw thousands of dollars of food -0- way each and every day, and 10,000 at holidays, "b.c." the people that drive the charity trucks do not apparent-ly-e- "work" on that day.

so food is thrown a way frequent-ly-e- as a lie ye-A/s-t-e-

and, when i "got" to go to c-our-t- for having art in the art room apparent ly e, the public attorne ye service s-aid- verbatim in court no less, that they would not be representing me. i went to b/at at lib and impromptu at that (and kept the c/as/e on the fence for 4 hrs, and a month or 2 beyond) data ditto that, as i built a website in tribute to hey/ head'sup, this could be you dum-b-f-uck - ) and h/ave aided in the enjoyment of my time and peace of mind where i pay rent on my di' me

the same public attorney service that would not represent me on their di-me- told me that they couldn't because my website was too personal. truth, i built the website, already knowing the de-c-k's- would be set against me, and could prove no matter what the attorne-ye- was per-sue-in-g- that he was c-her-ry-e- p-ick-ing-

that same public service to represent me in court, but couldn't based on the premise my website to represent my self was "too" per's 0/n e all, also runs the distribution of my food stamps. and i sent them notice of my website as with 1000 other people in this t/0wn. and, my foodstamps got cut, b.c. my thinking apparently e didn't -a-f-f-0-r-d- me nough money e to have t-hem-

ie, the food stamp system here is that you have to be working x amount of hrs, and i was working for me, against the competitive "time" the rent-all-co-m-p/an-ye  s-0we-d- again-st-me

ie i had to spend the time to build the cot ton picking web site to prove the bull's hi t in the gaps, that it didn't have a right to re claim without a w/h0le package, no assumption, just, if you want to wear my virtue, let's see you to/o proclaim thus my h0st0reye, from the vi ew/e point of eve, as t my e g0/d e/b t 0/m e a.d. & meaning fully e

no food stamps for me, while i am working without money to stay in a place b-u-y a rent-all agency, that also build's s-hell-ters-e- for 'women" ie ab-use-d- women. and no representation in c-our-t- which gave me more time to not use making money to pay my rent, and the c-hi'm-e- attorn-ye com-men-t-'s he can't believe i waste my time this way, on a website (without his bull shit in it, i p~lan to lay e w/(h)as~t/e

tired of the dum-b-f-uck t-r/i-c-k's-

there should n't be any need for c-ha-r-i-t-ye-

there is enough food on the planet un bespoken and it is wasted to buy the grocery company a bet-t-a(i)re competitive -h-edge- as the lame ass management at trader joes, i can at/test 0ne day in tre p0se

i have kept the paper work to pay it forward, among other things that don't s0we, but keep back the h0/ne 0n/e per-p-0's-e-e-

let us not be deceived : charity does not b r/ea.d e/b t 0 w/ any e 0n e "charity" is "one" x "way" perp-e-t-u-ally-e-  w/as -t- e (and it can only waste w/hat h~as and ew/e t (h)at a.d.

it is about recognizing the difference of sel l i/n g/(l)0ve t a w/(h)ay e

h~ p a.d. d ye in t'd~ate

i d0 be l~ea f i/n c/r~aft

an/d e/b th'~s t/e p's~

the craft to the raft g/able s/s i/n g's~

tis t/he (p).r.0~0f e y0/u/r/e m~0(u)nt f~l0 w/(h)er (e) i/n~g'~ s0l i.d. l ye A s/t/e ther e b/r e.a. d i/n g0/d c0/m~p an ye

i remember reading about a scientific theory about why the dinosaurs went extinct, and it read it was because they ate all the floweres and thus removed the steppes. i thought this intriguing, and have bandied about it to rich in the past, any way i think relatively speaking, crafts are set (h)r0ne fl0weres, and seeing the step p's i' syn/the vita ll ye

i am very p.r0 doing your own thing and following it thru e

c~r/aft are set (h)r0ne fl0weres, and seeing the step p's i' syn/the vita ll ye p a/s t/e & pat/h~e may/k~e di fi/n g ea. r~i/n~g e late  just b.c. an/s w/(h)ear t h/at

ps i'm excited, i slept last night without a sleeping pill, and i slept fine. actually really fine, and the hall's here are really quiet, not that anything on the outside has changed per se, however, i feel at peace in my apartment and the t-re-m0-r-t-, of the rent-all-a-gen-c-ye- is re si`de in g f0r/m/e peace able a.d.e & my t i'm(e) is t re st/0re d (e/b) t(h)0/m e in g f0r/m/e a.d. e

it your e p/at/h~e s0w/r~ye

i'll get to that all rig ht

g0/d ew/e 's hi ne tu`de

s~p.r.~ink le d ew/e t (h/r) u e = true & hue

From: Angela Cook <xubrnt@me.com>

Subject: th~e m0ther e s~hi.p. (h)as t L~an/de a.d.'s~t/ra(i)te ve/n'~s~0w/(h)e~n

Date: September 28, 2015 10:30:51 PM EDT

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